settled for-never

unsettled 

the sun settled 

and yeah I don't know why 

I can't get out of this 

I don't know why I wish
nothing existed

maybe I missed it

-the thing I needed to not miss-

and now I run the risk

of missing everything 

else, I already am, 

sleepwalking 

I don't see them, they don't see me

already, I'm wearing my invisibility

cloak, just wish I could soak 

in real life, wish I could absorb

-real life-

the computer screen

it's not it

that unearthly gleam

it's not it

the crowds I pass by 

not it

-a thousand sighs-

am I getting closer?

the hundred hello's I forgot to say

not it

not blanking you that day

it's not it

real life
I wish I could absorb /-it-

I'm sorry, not really, but I am 

for not trying at all, 

for ignoring you each and every day

for never looking into your eyes

for never having the guts to say

-hello-

but hello, it doesn't really mean

anything, so I'll just continue 

to be invisible, for I don't really exist. 

REAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLYYYY

-hell, what does that even mean-