jugular vein

You, Lord,  

closer to me, than my jugular vein

please don't let it all be in vain

this/ that/ life/ death
the unceasing. the neverending

-pain-/ please Lord wash away the stain

etched upon my soul, 

please Lord, remove this heaviness
gimme the strength
to reach my end goal

please Lord, don't let it be in vain

oh Lord, please don't let me remain

in this state

of 

-heedlessness-

I want to understand again

I want to understand