Monday 27 May 2019

Almost Blue

composed a eulogy in my head
        you're still alive, not yet dead
the words almost read
true

almost blue

still
 thinking of you
thinking of you

almost knew

it would end
always spend
too much time
thinking

starving, a bit sad
the last ten days
are here, i almost had
an inclination

almost blue
still
thinking of you

still wanting

it to be true

forever lasts a day

a single memory in a haze
growing thicker

and thicker

& thicker 

Friday 17 May 2019

Here be everything- epilogue

a hundred hues
of gold and grey
a hundred reasons
to stay away
only one - to seek a new way
-to live
oh to live
to live to live to live
Ya Allah,
the holy month
is passing by ever so fast, 
this fleeting peace 
 never seems to last
unless you cultivate it
Ya Allah
in between fasting
and praying and yearning
and saying
things to You
in between working and wandering
reflecting and pondering
in between visits
to your house
on the edge of regents park
the elders are calling me
the sirens are wailing
the outlaws are scaling
walls.
in between
love and hate
the never-ending wait
and a fate-
willfully abandoned
In between it all


umbra sumus