tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79102550367859907672024-02-07T05:24:23.520-08:00Sy's Poems Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comBlogger895125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-42770700376700988702019-08-01T13:34:00.001-07:002019-08-01T13:49:23.037-07:00water colour <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<i><span style="color: black;">ever feel like you're living inside a watercolour painting? It's
faded hues are ever changing, absent of emotion. </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">the grind, the hustle, the
crowds, the river... the miskeen from the lanes </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">ever feel like you're living
inside a watercolour painting? Vague as anything? The elders are there,
childhood friends, the market sellers and the canteen folk, wanderers, your
beaming local Councillor. </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">< >>>></span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">the morning light spread,
the smell of the bread factory fills the air.... </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">can you smell inside a
watercolour? </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;"> painted, even brush
strokes, made marks, mixed colours, blue and yellow makes green....</span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">they hold hands, the elders
from the Island, they hold hands and sing a prayer</span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">we danced together all
afternoon, to songs I only heard in a distant black and white dream.
shrouded. </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">maybe it's the 6am's,
meditating by the empty lake, in the empty grounds of the asylum</span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">maybe it's the sunrises</span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">those watercolour
sunrises </span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">and the unearthly peace of
living in a peopleless world</span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">everyone has left the planet, my dreaming keep me busy, my imagination runs wild - some days, I lag behind.... the bittersweet loneliness of living - of a life, without reigns</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: black;">it's the end of the world</span></i><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><i>wash it away..... let the colours bleed</i></span></div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-87848727753650211622019-07-28T13:04:00.000-07:002019-08-01T13:36:49.527-07:00full of grace <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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it's better this way</div>
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wandering </div>
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alone</div>
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out in the wilderness that is life </div>
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the painter paints</div>
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in monotone hues</div>
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don't be fooled</div>
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by the tea dances</div>
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by the laughs and smiles</div>
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toilet selfies that beguile </div>
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haven't you heard the clowns prayer</div>
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haven't you read the tramps guide</div>
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a heart exhales </div>
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for a brief while </div>
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when it relieves another</div>
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and for a brief while</div>
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its not so sad</div>
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to live in this sad</div>
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world</div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-87244891547169225612019-07-08T14:47:00.004-07:002019-07-09T13:20:00.496-07:00elders r friends<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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86 years </div>
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electric pink hair<br />
a heavy trolley in tow</div>
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you taught me always go slow,<br />
marina</div>
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76 years</div>
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a heart of gold</div>
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you twirl me around glovina </div>
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you tell me i look beautiful</div>
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and kiss me on the cheek<br />
you tell me to speak<br />
my truth- always<br />
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93 years<br />
gentle and upright<br />
your heart catches the light olga<br />
the older<br />
you get, the more lovely you become<br />
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and<br />
when i feel down</div>
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you make me so happy </div>
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you give me faith</div>
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in a world lacking<br />
when all i know are endings<br />
you help me see the beauty in them<br />
in endings<br />
I'm spending<br />
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my time<br />
in earnest.<br />
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and you don't know</div>
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how much you've come to mean to me<br />
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elders r friends<br />
i'll always remember <br />
the way you glowed</div>
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the way you showed</div>
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me love</div>
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x</div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-56225907415699572742019-07-07T10:23:00.000-07:002019-07-07T10:30:20.827-07:00nothing lasts (so hold fast- you said)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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thought about you </div>
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when i went for a swim</div>
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the ocean is far away</div>
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the stars above our heads</div>
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died to soon</div>
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you said i was your eyes</div>
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you don't know how surprised</div>
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I was, when you said </div>
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that i was your eyes</div>
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when you said you missed me</div>
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when you said you wished we</div>
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could be together forever</div>
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i have holes in my hands</div>
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the coal burnt through my flesh</div>
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even at my best</div>
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I was never so good</div>
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I don't think i ever would</div>
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have sacrificed anything</div>
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for everything </div>
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you offered</div>
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the world</div>
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i'm sorry </div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-52784306992797421332019-06-19T12:20:00.002-07:002019-06-19T12:20:20.245-07:00sw13 timelines <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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stateless</div>
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faithless</div>
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hard rain</div>
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back again</div>
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at the wetlands</div>
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but this time with the elders</div>
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this time with a sense of self</div>
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this time, i felt</div>
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like a different person</div>
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this time, the lagoons had shrunk </div>
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everything was smaller</div>
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black swan </div>
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was gone</div>
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I grew a few inches taller</div>
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gosh, life </div>
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it's such a strange thing</div>
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such a strange and fragmented thing</div>
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i can't tell you </div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-87570706721668864342019-05-27T14:58:00.001-07:002019-05-27T14:58:27.081-07:00Almost Blue<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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composed a eulogy in my head<br />
you're still alive, not yet dead<br />
the words almost read<br />
true<br />
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almost blue<br />
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still<br />
thinking of you<br />
thinking of you<br />
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almost knew<br />
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it would end<br />
always spend<br />
too much time<br />
thinking<br />
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starving, a bit sad<br />
the last ten days<br />
are here, i almost had<br />
an inclination<br />
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almost blue<br />
still<br />
thinking of you<br />
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still wanting<br />
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it to be true<br />
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forever lasts a day<br />
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a single memory in a haze<br />
growing thicker<br />
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and thicker<br />
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& thicker </div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-82303224923704259632019-05-17T14:48:00.001-07:002019-05-18T10:09:33.912-07:00Here be everything- epilogue<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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a hundred hues</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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of gold and grey<o:p></o:p></div>
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a hundred reasons<o:p></o:p></div>
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to stay away</div>
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only one - to seek a new way</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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-to live<o:p></o:p></div>
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oh to live<o:p></o:p></div>
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to live to live to live</div>
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Ya Allah,<o:p></o:p></div>
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the holy month<o:p></o:p></div>
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is passing by ever so fast, </div>
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this fleeting peace </div>
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never seems to last</div>
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unless you cultivate it</div>
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Ya Allah</div>
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in between fasting<o:p></o:p></div>
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and praying and yearning<o:p></o:p></div>
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and saying<o:p></o:p></div>
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things to You<o:p></o:p></div>
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in between working and wandering<o:p></o:p></div>
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reflecting and pondering<o:p></o:p></div>
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in between visits<o:p></o:p></div>
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to your house<o:p></o:p></div>
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on the edge of regents park<o:p></o:p></div>
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the elders are calling me<o:p></o:p></div>
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the sirens are wailing<o:p></o:p></div>
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the outlaws are scaling<br />
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walls. <o:p></o:p></div>
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in between <o:p></o:p></div>
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love and hate<o:p></o:p></div>
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the never-ending wait</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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and a fate-</div>
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willfully abandoned</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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In between it all<o:p></o:p><br />
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umbra sumus </div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-77757730556649861452019-04-27T14:41:00.000-07:002019-04-27T14:41:11.383-07:00stray-nge happ-nings<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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strange happenings</div>
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call point checks</div>
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running for miles</div>
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twilight reveries</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
swimming </div>
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until stillness descends<br />
and reaches<br />
until it's hard to breathe</div>
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strange happenings</div>
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silence in the shrine room</div>
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words by a canal </div>
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the storm is raging in hackbridge</div>
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the dogs are barking in unison</div>
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a doll speaks</div>
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the money doesn't add up</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
strange happenings</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
outside </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
not inside the internet</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
pearlette</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
she said i would learn</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
strange happenings</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
outside a steam room<br />
shrouded in white light<br />
an elderly arab woman</div>
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kisses my cheek</div>
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she says congratulations</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i tell her she has mistaken me</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
for someone else<br />
some one else. </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
as she leaves she says<br />
she hopes </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it will come true<br />
for you....<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
spirit guide?</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
cosmic guru?<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
strange happenings</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
nothing ever happens</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to exist in a black hole<br />
to be swallowed up by the sun<br />
to be blown away in hackbridge<br />
<br />
gosh, that'd be fun >_<</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-46920188153761463202019-04-19T14:51:00.000-07:002019-04-21T14:15:12.295-07:00jummah at sulimaniye <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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friday prayers</div>
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at suleymaniye masjid <br />
wedged between </div>
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a turkish giant</div>
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and a west african queen</div>
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nails done, scarlet</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
gold rings adorning fingers</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a fine and glamorous abaya </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
gleaming</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
perfect made up face</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
beaming</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br />
noor spreads<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the khutbah is in turkish</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
lost in translation</div>
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<br /></div>
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i try to translate </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the</div>
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unhearing</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
deeply caring</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
beautiful uzbek mother </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
sign to her</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
young boy</div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
jummah at suleymaniye</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the men gather outside</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
wearing thawbs and smiles</div>
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kids squat on stairs by the tents</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
eating fresh kebabs and chicken<br />
cooked by elders on the streets </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
smoke spreads</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
kanafe and cake, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
families rejoice </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
friends relate </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
jummah at sulimaniye<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
haggerston lyf</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-70521216936431777262019-04-18T15:12:00.002-07:002019-04-19T14:37:36.334-07:00fulham micro climate<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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a cup of tea</div>
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the courage to be disliked</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
meiko kaji</div>
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blinding light</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it refracts off the walls </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
of the secret garden</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
insulating</div>
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the orchard </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
its piercing beams </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
burn through the eyes</div>
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of caterpillars </div>
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the legs of the ants </div>
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collapse under its weight </div>
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the bodies are blown away</div>
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the queen is nowhere to be found</div>
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i close my book</div>
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and lie back on the grass</div>
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the earth is quivering, inconsolable </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
its still turning, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
bruised, broken, defiled </div>
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earth is still yearning, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
for respite. </div>
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the wretched are suffering, ever still</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the walruses fall to their death</div>
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the sea lion's child is taken</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the glaciers are melting</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
pink floyd is lamenting</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
-hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way-</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-55806191675349795432019-04-16T14:32:00.001-07:002019-04-18T14:45:15.697-07:00- shad o's<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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umbra sumus</div>
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but our shadows are giants</div>
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but our shadows are friends</div>
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sometimes they guide us</div>
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sometimes they follow us</div>
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sometimes they shrink</div>
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sometimes I think </div>
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umbra sumus</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
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the lights will soon go out<br />
what are you waiting for</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
?</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-77025170930085443572019-04-15T11:07:00.001-07:002019-04-15T11:14:28.884-07:00elderly hearts <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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>//.</div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
learning from the elders</div>
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the art of gratitude</div>
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of servitude, of living</div>
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of life, and a joy </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that runs deep</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
deeper that deep</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
amazing graze</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
mac n cheese</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the kind hearted chef cooked up<br />
to please.<br />
us all, she gives some to the delivery boy</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and human kindness is overwhelming</div>
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and when the years turn into decades</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and almost a century has passed</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and you're old<br />
and fragile and ever so slow </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and visitors are few and far between</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
then you will know</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what it means to be human</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
she said one day you'll be old</div>
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but in here / we take care of each other</div>
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we take care of each other</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
WE TAKE CARE<br />
OF EACH OTHER</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and the generation is passing over</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that golden generation</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
you know the kind</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the ones</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
THAT TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER</div>
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god, my heart it feels so full</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
when I'm with the elders</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
real people living real lives<br />
with names like Pyliss and Mabel and Winston and Remi<br />
names like June, Marina and Grace<br />
the colours of the rainbow<br />
they only fade,<br />
in the minds eye of some, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in a world of pomp and fakery</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I ask of you,<br />
teach me everything you know</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
teach how to grow<br />
in wisdom, as well as age<br />
teach me what really matters</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
while i still have</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the illusion of time</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
tell me- does love really define </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
everything u are</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>></div>
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<br />
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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O</div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-78157530058382096522019-03-29T17:06:00.001-07:002019-03-29T17:06:21.902-07:00w(air)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
took to the sea </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
after a wandering tour</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
took to the wetlands</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
when the small hand hit 4</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
or was it 5 or was it six</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
watched the sunset</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
jotted down lists</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
new beginnings</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
merge into </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
old endings</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
goodbyes </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
shapeshift into hellos</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
at a new table now</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
with old ladies and old fellows</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
singing songs of devotion</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
shit, life </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it's forever in motion</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and it's beautiful</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and fragmented</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and lonesome </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i'm relearning the art</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
of solitude</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
rediscovering truth</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through servitude</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and sure, things happen</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
sure - things change </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that's okay</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
-you're exactly where you're supposed to be- </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-90344451306902107972019-03-24T12:27:00.004-07:002019-03-24T12:27:58.579-07:00Granter of Wishes<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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went to the mosque</div>
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to spend time alone</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
with You Oh Allah, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the most Kind, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I seek it, kindness</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
oh Allah, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I wandered through the rose garden</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
over the years, my heart has hardened</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
but when I pray</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and to You, when I say</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the things I most need to say, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I feel it soften </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
oh Allah </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dunya is hollow </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
surface to the core</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
oh Allah, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
please, may You kindly restore</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
me to the state I was in</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
wherein</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I saw things in truth</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
when I lived it</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I'd like so much </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to live it again</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-4813113802089533182019-03-22T16:18:00.000-07:002019-03-29T16:57:22.527-07:00vertigo/ dayz<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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days go by</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
thick and fast</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through the haze</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
country miles</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through the haze</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dunya defiles</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through the haze</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the fish tank</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
green algae</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a daze</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the elders are playing dominoes</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and drinking ginger beer</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the churail is screaming</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
blood is spilling everywhere</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it spreads in black lake</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
by the mountains</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
searing pain takes</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
hold </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
days go by </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
thick and fast </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
so do the nights</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
wandering </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
tooting </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
breaking an old mans heart</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through damning words not mine</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
his valve is already floppy</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
they say don't be soppy</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it's just life</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
its not good enough</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i didn't do enough</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
water checks</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
fire safety</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
full moon</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
running on empty </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
till lungs are on fire</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
till heart pumps louder<br />
to the sound of hearts club classics<br />
gym lyf, friday night, eastenders in subs</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
purple mirror<br />
a reflection, not mine<br />
to re-define<br />
what it means to be a</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
stranger</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the common</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
forever alone</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
forever common</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
sipping green tea </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
with a couple of strangers </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a welcome break, from tv dinners</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and deafening silence </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
broken up by a cacophony of meows</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
from an internal violence</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that shows no signs of desisting </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and shit, giving up </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
never felt so liberating</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-66636971980366934692019-03-22T16:15:00.002-07:002019-03-22T16:15:31.078-07:00l(only)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
so this is</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what that's like</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
bob marley's</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
waiting in vain</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
so this is </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what that's like</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
camden nights</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
tooting lights</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
brixton heights<br />
dalston lies<br />
hackney fries<br />
chickedy chicken<br />
embankment dies<br />
drury lane<br />
theatrical pain<br />
grimaldo gots slain<br />
but not in the bodily sense<br />
hence.</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
miles upon miles </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
so this is what its like</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
///</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-70412654099480340672019-02-25T01:19:00.000-08:002019-02-25T01:22:47.468-08:00dreamers strange cont.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
by the time we arrived, the coach had just departed</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
put down the pen, before the story had even started</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and the sun set over the fields, and winding rivers I once traced</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
like the back of my hand, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
burnt out, erased</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dispersed like grains of sand, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in the wind and it submerged </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the sun, under the downs</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
under the downs</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to wander, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through all these towns</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dreamers strange</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
brighton rock</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dreamers strange</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that winters eve</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dreamers strange </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that stolen ring.</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i told her to give it back </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a shell in waves </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
swathes of runners</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dreamers strange</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the old church, the smell of incense</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dreamers strange</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to be / perpetually</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
LoSt in TrAnsLatioN</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
TRANSLATE </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
THIS </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
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<div style="text-align: center;">
;osifh ;FJ C'OIJHF OICYSGVFBDUIXGF</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
LSDJFH LSAIUD FHCSILUFHPS'D]QW[;EL</div>
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<br /></div>
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dreamers strange<br />
dreamers strange<br />
dreamers strange</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-22410538455997003412019-02-25T01:08:00.003-08:002019-02-25T01:08:19.156-08:00streets are there <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
strangers</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
& dreams</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
strange dreams</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
dreamers strange </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
camden sunset </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
squatting by the canal side</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
reliving youth, them lost days</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
so many souls, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in the end, we always part ways</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
there with georgian kindreds</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i remember </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
there in the tropics</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i remember</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
there in the midst of our conversation</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
about the valleys of Northern Pakistan</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i remember</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the gullys </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i remember</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the beggars, the elders, the saints </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the writings on the wall, now so faint</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i remember</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the pain, the loss, the regret, the elation</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the frustration</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the laughter the tears</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the tears, the tears,</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the years, the years the years</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
eastern sunsets, western sunrises</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the smog, the minarets, the mountains</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i remember i remember i remember</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
new beginnings and tragic endings </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i fucking remember</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and each memory hurts</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and so I try to forget</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
stay occupied</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to not let</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
myself settle in them. </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i learn to give hours freely, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to elongate </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
tour guide life</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to witter away time </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to go the long way around </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to give hours freely </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to avoid being alone</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
with these memories</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that hurt. </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and another </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and another </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
aimless wander</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
under the sun</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
under the moon</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
kings, temple, brixton </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
where i end, i find another </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
two's company, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a canteen friend</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
she came by the secret garden</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
with her friend, an irish man </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
we went by the hamsters grave</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
we went by her flat, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
searched maps and traced crystals</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
traded stories, briefly</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i forget</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
everything is changing again</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and I had a dream</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
after a long time</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I had a dream </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and when I later went for a swim</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
my dream resurfaced</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and i remembered</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
everything again. </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the zoo. the chiraya ghar. eight years. </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and my heart hurts so much sometimes</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
when I think about things</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
when I think about the past, and souls </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
once close to mine</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to leave and to be left behind</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and sure life is so beautiful</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
so beautiful </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
incomprehensibly beautiful</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
fucked up</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
beautiful (light comes out of darkness, it emanates from it)</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what else is there to do</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
but to keep moving </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
everything is changing again</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i wish i could tell you about it </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
god, how i wish i could tell you about it</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the sea is beckoning once more</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-13181266183762387552019-02-18T02:02:00.002-08:002019-02-18T02:02:39.380-08:00georgian mountains<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
mountain dwellers of georgia</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in possession of </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
unassuming luminosity</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
cloaked in hoods, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in possession of </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
an opaque curiosity </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to brew tea</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to herd sheep</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to weave baskets</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and to arrive in this city</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that makes you question</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
everything you are</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and everything you believe</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
this city leaves you wanting</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it leaves you wanting</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
just a little while longer</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
until you understand</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and then you're part of it</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the way you are the mountains of georgia</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
you're part of its story, the glory </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the grandeur </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the grit, the manure </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
fewer prophets</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
have emerged from this land</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-868536441380497922019-02-13T15:32:00.002-08:002019-02-13T16:13:34.416-08:00living london, a decade on, still living<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
i almost forgot</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what it felt like</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to be free and connected </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to see beauty manifest</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i neglected<br />
that part of me </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
traded in wonderment </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in search of riches</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a stability that<br />
destabilizes</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
took a while to<br />
realise-this</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
took a while to wander </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to wonder, to wander<br />
flash of lighting, roar of thunder</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
it took a while </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I almost forgot</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what it was like</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to write to live to be </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
free</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
from a certain branded</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
freedom<br />
it took a while<br />
days that felt like lifetimes<br />
it was the right time<br />
to return to </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the cemetery</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to Apollo</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the cold night bus</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
joyous sorrow</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
east street </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
recalling memories</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
of the glory days</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
with comrades of old</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
its all coming back to me</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
these days</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
back to being </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a wandering bum</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
flitting in and out</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
of social gatherings<br />
yet to succumb<br />
to earthly weariness</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
brixton to kings cross</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
relearning </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the art of the doss<br />
relearning<br />
how to be lost<br />
(the found kind)</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Alhamdulillah<br />
<div style="text-align: center;">
i almost forgot</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what it felt like</div>
</div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-86932451431431190902019-02-12T15:55:00.002-08:002019-02-13T02:40:47.916-08:00befriended by the blind <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
met<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>a couple on the
bus<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
the 131 bus to kingston<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
they were both blind<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
the woman sat next to me, <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
the man said he would prefer to stand<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
he said he liked to stand on buses<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she started talking to me<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
the woman with black glasses and a white cane<br />
good humoured and kind<br />
she told me her name<br />
what was it?</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she said she got into a ski accident <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she smashed her head</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she said at least she was doing something she enjoyed<br />
at least she had led<br />
a good life, and it continues</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
not a trace of bitterness</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she said it could have been worse<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she’s come a long way<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she’s going to the gym<br />
<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she has him, </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she has a partner</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
he had brain cancer as a child<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
and he went blind<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
but he's a pro at karate and all sorts</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
so spirited and happy<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
subjectively, she said life is what you make it</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she has 2 boys<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she told me about her old job</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
I didn't understand it </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she told me her name <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
I can’t remember what it was<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Jacinda or something<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
she asked me a lot of questions<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
and then it was my turn to speak<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
tongue tied, I half stammered<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
not knowing where to look <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
from where he was standing<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
he leaned over to the direction of my voice<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
and listened to my replies<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
from where she was sitting <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
everything I said sounded flat and empty<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
(bland and repetitive, to my ears alone perhaps)<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
I said I’m taking the Japanese students bowling<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
I said I’m some kind of guide, </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
but not like she was</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
and soon our conversation dies<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
and its ashes hang in the air</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">choking, I TURN MY GAZE TOWARDS
THE BUS WINDOW<o:p></o:p></i></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">AND STARE, <o:p></o:p></i></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">INTO THE NEW MALDON DISTANCE </i><br />
blessed to have encountered them<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
two strangers, who found love in each other<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
two blind strangers <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
who make the best<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
of everything they have<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
(she said it could have been worse)<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
not a trace of bitterness, it could have been worse</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
and my heart burst.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
it burst<o:p></o:p><br />
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;">(I beg of the earth, to swallow me whole</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;">unworthy of this precious and beautiful life </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;">unworthy of being befriended by the blind)</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
I remember then. WE ARE BLIND.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<a href="http://sysprints.blogspot.com/2013/12/we-are-blind.html">http://sysprints.blogspot.com/2013/12/we-are-blind.html</a></div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-77018674065503701202019-02-12T15:49:00.000-08:002019-02-13T02:43:44.264-08:00nero man<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
(prelude)</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a man in cafe nero</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
unearthly and wild</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
yet meek and mild </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
perhaps lonesome </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what was his name again.</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
he said hello when i passed him</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
i said hello back and smiled</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
he said you have a beautiful smile</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I took a seat and after a while</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
he presented me with a poem</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a poem for the smiling woman</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I took it and said thank you</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and he proceeded to pour </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
out the contents</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
of his head</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
he's led </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a rich life</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
learning though learning is difficult </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
because he has learning difficulties</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a rich life, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
learning to building the self </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
through never ending strife</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
/this being human/</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the way we arrive </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
in the places we arrive</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
my phone rang and I told him I had to answer it</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I wished I never answered it</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
and instead kept listening to him</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
that man meek and mild </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
outspoken, almost riled </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
perhaps, so lonesome</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
nero man </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what was his name </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
how strange, </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
this one precious life</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
may we learn to give our time</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to the ones that are in need of it</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
may we learn </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
to give for nothing.<br />
and love in the same way. </div>
</div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-91407169188236426052019-02-03T02:13:00.004-08:002019-02-12T15:49:20.262-08:00means no worries <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div style="text-align: center;">
whats good </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
wandering in mayfair</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the lost river tyburn </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
has disappeared</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
the antiques have been shifted</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
hedrix's house</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
has half drifted</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
away, whats good</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
tea shops and memories</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
marble arch</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
a bruised heart</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what's good </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
not my organs</div>
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whats good</div>
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the town hall hotel</div>
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stories of geesers</div>
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and pie shops</div>
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and lots and lots</div>
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of other stuff</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what's good</div>
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wandering in bethnal green</div>
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purposefully</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what's good</div>
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wandering around india house</div>
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purposefully </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
what's good</div>
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the silence of savoy chapel </div>
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watching scar throw mufasa </div>
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to the wilderbeast again</div>
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but everything was different this time</div>
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i left during the intermission</div>
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made hakuna matata a new mission</div>
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whats good </div>
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the sunshine on the river</div>
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the city's landmarks glinting in red</div>
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bled, gold and crimson</div>
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whats good</div>
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not my organs</div>
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but i gotta keep </div>
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going going going</div>
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whats good </div>
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not my organs</div>
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it was snowing snowing snowing</div>
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what's good</div>
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battersea arts centre and busan<br />
essoira across borders<br />
tears at the secret garden<br />
ace hotel, rain<br />
the odd old man, a bit insane<br />
handing me a sweet poem in nero<br />
what's good<br />
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it's all good</div>
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<br />
a week </div>
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living london</div>
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guiding and being guided</div>
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<br /></div>
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it's all good<br />
(and verily with hardship there is ease)</div>
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Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-8575061049392094952019-01-20T13:52:00.004-08:002019-02-12T15:56:07.605-08:00Wheels & Wonder<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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skateboarding at sunset<o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>thru empty roads<o:p></o:p></div>
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winter wind blowing <o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>thru my
hollow bones<o:p></o:p></div>
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the full moon is gleaming<o:p></o:p></div>
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in the pink and blue tooting sky<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-align: center;">
at home, Meow is sleeping <o:p></o:p></div>
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his face is tucked behind <o:p></o:p></div>
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his tail, its very cold outside<o:p></o:p></div>
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even the trees are shivering <o:p></o:p></div>
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but I will continue to ride<o:p></o:p></div>
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my skateboard<o:p></o:p></div>
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think on that crowd<o:p></o:p></div>
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of running young deer<o:p></o:p></div>
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running to where? <o:p></o:p></div>
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some secret meadow<o:p></o:p></div>
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a secret meadow…<o:p></o:p></div>
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gosh, I don’t know<o:p></o:p></div>
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where the deer were going <o:p></o:p></div>
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they were just going</div>
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going going</div>
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with the winter wind blowing<br />
blowing blowing</div>
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thru their brittle bones </div>
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I remember now what it feels like<o:p></o:p></div>
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to be young and free<o:p></o:p></div>
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I remember now what it feels like<o:p></o:p></div>
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to be that kid me<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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reclaim your childhood joys<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>for its
pleasures await you. <o:p></o:p></div>
<br /></div>
Syhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11154396802023859189noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7910255036785990767.post-39429753628475654262019-01-16T11:27:00.003-08:002019-02-12T15:56:07.511-08:00numbers <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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elusive elevens </div>
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dreaming in thirds</div>
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hiding in O's</div>
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swimming in 7s</div>
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thinking in 5s </div>
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dying in 6s</div>
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6 bouts of irl- illness</div>
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6 lots of irl medication</div>
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5 wayward crows </div>
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by the 5 inch lake</div>
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5 chances to mistake</div>
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as opportunities /////absent 8 </div>
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8/// came too late.... </div>
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to l8</div>
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dreaming in thirds </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
swimming in 7s </div>
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dying in 6s</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
thinking in 5s </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
thinking </div>
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blinking </div>
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back paralysis </div>
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-l(8)-</div>
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5 buses</div>
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5 trains</div>
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a plane</div>
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6 dreams</div>
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each a variation</div>
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of the same 1</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
5 nights</div>
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5 cities</div>
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swimming in 7s</div>
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thinking in 5s</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
5 oceans</div>
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5 mountains</div>
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elusive elevens</div>
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5 prayers in 5 days</div>
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5 ways </div>
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to change</div>
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dreaming in thirds</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
swimming in sevens</div>
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drowning in 2s </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
hiding in 0s</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
/////////////////</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
only </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
1</div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
minus everything</div>
</div>
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