still talking to myself

...here i be

procrastinating 

by re-creating 

the present 

through words 

through pictures

will these empty expressions 

act as

predictors?

truth be, 

I ain't got a clue

I got an interview

later today

outside it's grey
should i even bother to say
that i feel like
i'm in another world

this interview 

it's for a job 

i applied for

back last year

back when I cared

about stuff like jobs

...I wonder
should I go,

should I lunge 

forward 

should I prepare 

ah why don't I care

about stuff no more

i just want to be well again,

so i can do good when
i know goodness
heals...
I wonder
should i flake
for the sake
of sanity-?