-inside this crazy head

man there are just so many things that I wanta do!

it's true and as soon as I become whole again, 

man, there ain't nothing left for me but to start anew,

yeah when I get better, there ain't no stopping me, 

but first I just need to be

-perfectly aligned-

I gotta get well, cos shit man, I can't tell 

you how much I wanta do,
ima do so much excellent stuff! 

cos I've had about enough

of this static life

-first thing-
ima buy an ice cream van 

travel the country with a print-out map in hand

swim to the outer hebrides
-and then-

ima learn to fish, yeah ima go fishing every day 

ima establish my very own place
by the edge of a beautiful lake

-maybe meditate- 

who knows where, who know's how I'm gonna get there

but inshAllah I'm gonna get there

and man ima teach you all one thing 

in exchange you can teach me something too, 

or bring me a plate of food.
I ain't that fussed, trust. 

Man ima find God again. 

Lord, ima come back to You

ima discover a new life form, something blue, 

something in the form of a strange creature, 

that creature will teach you,
how to be

 and ima share its ideas with the preacher
that's right, the preacher

everyday and every night ima escape gravity
-its in humankind's capacity-
(know that)

ima sell my pokemon cards on ebay 

and use the money to stay

some place cheap
when I'm done I'll say  

GAMSAHAMNIDA!

ARIGATOU!

MERCI!
GRACIA!

SHOOKRIA!

TACK!

ASANTE!

HVALA!

yes ima say thank you, to the world
-with such valour-

every day ima say, thank you
THANK YOU
world

and ima buy a chicken and fry up the eggs 

in some dusty garden in Sri Lanka

please thank her, for me, for the idea.
I'm gonna see
my plans through. 

Most importantly though

ima find God and free myself from all worldly matters.
-till then-

ima jam with the anarchists and the philosophers

write manucripts, walk through the salt lakes of bolivia

ima build a space ship and travel to the moon

how soon, how soon do I have to wait

before I can re-create myself, my life-

before I can buy that juice bar
in trinidad or was it panama?

man I got so much living to do 

and you, why don't you
just break free with me!
In a moment of clarity

yeah and I'd play the bongo with da beatniks, 

read these whacked out poems aloud 

to those with passion in their hearts, 

I think ima also make my fam proud

-somehow-

but first ima nick a rickshaw 

and drive across the korakoram highway 

straight through to china

maybe work on the rice paddies
maybe make friends with a farmer 

or some ardent learners, along the way

I call this living! I hafta say, man I hafta say 

this be the life, for me. I can't wait to be

whole again. So I can send
you postcards from every corner of this earth,
mirth in my eyes, as I write
this poem, yeah ima take photo's all around 

and tell my stories 

to anyone who'll listen, listen

ima pound my fist against every door

ima realise what it's all for; life, existance

yeah ima walk to Mecca
 and follow in the footprints of the holy

ima make it to the promised land, solely 

for Your sake.
See every time I'm afflicted 

my mind, it remind's me of all the places I want to go 

and all the things I want to see, all the things I wanta be

but then I forget. I set

myself up for nothing. But not this time.
this time man ima sit in a cafe in cuba

where ima play the tuba

for a bit of loose change; to get me through
the day

man the life I wanna lead, it ain't no life of greed.

It will bring me to nowhere-ness.
ima ride back, on a horse through Mongolia

bum around with my nomad pals
and yeah

ima do my wudu in streams and rivers everyday 

ima pray, in some beautiful place

on mountain tops and desert sands.

ima write another book, a better one, just lend me a hand 

beautiful one, lend me a hand
ima go on an epic road trip 

through America. ima break into Macbeth's castle, 

play make-belief by the ruins in peru

Ima ride my scooter, the kid's one, through 

some hills, maybe in Jeju Island near souf korea

Ima be a warrior!
-phantasmagoria-

 Ima make a film 

about something that actually means something

and ima dance under the stars to the sound of a waterfall

at night Ima call 

upon You. 

Ima be a proper muslim 

such a proper muslim that I won't care about doing 

none of this stuff no more

because well, there's so much more

to life than that

-exceeding beauty-

-exceeding beauty-

-exceeding beauty-
EVERYWHERE