Saturday, 3 August 2013

here and now

still no closer to where I want to be
still I remain afflicted 
by this otherworldly disease
still so far from being at ease
so I should just leave
right? I should just go to Australia 
like I planned to 
before I randomly landed this new
job, 
ahhh my heart and head throb
with all this change
with all this spinning/
I'm still thinking of binning
it, -everything I worked for-
and yet I continue to pour 
out all all my mixed up thoughts
and so I told Sussex, I'm not coming
to write, to wander, 
to accrue sucess, and another blunder
yeah now, I can't afford to do either
but still I need a breather
still I need to leave