south ken

south ken

can't describe what I felt when

i moved through the dark subway

for the first time since that dark day

and I'd love to say 

that I've changed, but in all honesty

I haven't and for some reason

I still haven't let go of this place

for it was here, I came face to face

with my brokenness

-a stirring unrest (remains)-

and listen, I need to say 

what's in my head

so that I can finally move on

listen, I've never known 

what it means to belong

I've only ever known

what it means to be wrong

and out of the hundred thousand places I've been 

this is the only place I can't seem

to shake off, I know I've got a lot

to learn, you know one day,

 I'd like to turn

it all around; I'd like to be found

I'd like to stop running. I'd like to live on the ground

not in the air, not in outer space

not in this place, 

that exists outside of material reality

listen can't you see, I'm trying to work
through it still
 this place-

abruptly I entered/ abruptly I left

and since then I've tried to forget 

and remember everything

-the whole of life-

but listen, I don't know man, 

I guess it was the only place

that two strangers tried,
two 'supervisors,'
maybe they're the reason why 

I can't let go, 

I want to change, but I don't know

how. Yeah, I miss you guys.

(and all the people I haven't seen since December)

and all the friends who I still remember

and think about all the time

and I want to change
yeah I want to change
I don't wanta be estranged
from humankind no more.
shit, can't believe
she thinks I'm still in lahore
damn