amazing people and that one boss.

to just be

so overwhelmed

by life, by living

to just find

them everywhere

those people who remind

you of everything

you gave up on

dreams/ projects/ ideas

-yourself/ themselves-

to see them then

in newspapers

old friends
 old teachers

old preachers
to see their names in print

to see them on TV

it brings

about the strangest feeling

to see where you are

to see how far

you've come kind sir

while we're so far

in terms of knowing

-yes, in terms of knowing-

to know that despite it all

despite my fall

-from grace-

despite the fact that I erased

myself from your reality

(and vice versa)

to know that even now

that even after all this time

all those chances you gave me

-those chances passed me by-

to know
I can send you a text message

and you'll reply

at the end of the day I know why

and you don't know how much

that means 

Swear down, I'ma try harder 

I'ma to fix up 

and to all of you 

who still have my back 

I swear I'll pay you back 

with sheer kindness

one day in the not so distant future

-truth-