you just knew

on a too cold

winters night

smoking a pipe

trying to erase

trying to wipe

away all thoughts

and memories
trying to refract
all negative energies

trying to exhale

yet //another// fail

-just let go-

just let it out,
colourful smoke
and a long sad happy laugh

yeah I'm sorry I missed it

but I didn't want to be

in a crowd

I didn't want to have to listen

to loud

talk, 

small talk
I didn't want to be around
happy people

after a long and depressing day

at another job

that I'm about to leave

                                               //////////////////leave it out

listen. just understand

I ain't against you
I respect what you're trying to do
even if you think otherwise
I just didn't want them
to witness my demise
-un-hidable-
I would have let it show

detachment, entrapment

----------------disillusionment

and so//////

I just spent time with a soul and a pipe

I just tried to wipe

stuff out

-----(with my only love)

 another girl, soon to be gone

how did we come together again

how did you know?