metaphysical

it's hard to explain

this metaphysical pain

that overcomes me

most days i feel so lonely

in myself

see, ordinary people

they'll never understand this hell

so I no longer tell

them about it. 

me, i don't want sympathy

i just want a little reassurance

that i'm not completely mad

that this pain exists-
i miss the bliss
of yesterday
i wish this hurt
would go away
most of the time

 i soldier on,

I hide behind a smile
and for a while
everthing seems
to be okay
it's hard for me to say
it's hard for me to know
what's what
so I continue to seek refuge

in these words that I jot
down, in these sad poems
these sad woe-ms...