Same shit
different year
I swear-
I can no longer bear
this affliction
sweet benediction
release me
Lord, decrease me
in my suffering
for I am suffering.
*
This pain,
I no longer gain
from it,
Lord, I feel
myself wane
and I feign
Lord, I feign
normality-
but this normality-
its carving holes
in my sanity.
Humanity,
be grateful.
*
Lord, this pain
It will not leave me
Lord, it aggrieves me
that I cannot live
like an ordinary person
I feel my condition worsen
everyday
and I can pretend that I'm okay
but pretending
won't make the pain
go away.
*
*
Lord, I pray to be healed
So I can wander in a field
of Your remembrance....
*
Same shit
different year
I swear,
I just don't care
any more...
*
*
Ah, don't worry-
this despair
this despair
it won't last
I'll hold fast
I'll be patient
like I've always been
I seem to be
getting better at it.
*
I guess
this here-
it's simple
recognition
of a condition
I have
it's called
'being human.'
I still haven't gotten
used to it.
