Follow the River

As I follow the river

I try to figure

shit out in my head

I try to figure 

out what led

to this moment in time-

some kind of sublime.

See
lately I've been living

in a dream 

that's not mine

and I can't seem 

to find-

a reason 

a cause

a calling

I know I'm stalling

I know I'm clawing

at 

something 

that's 

slipping 

from my grasp

I try so hard

to clasp

hold of

something 

already

long gone, 

something

I lost 

along 

my way

something
I still crave

See, nowadays

I always come up blank
but as I stand at the 

edge of the river bank 

and watch the waters
slide and glide along
and travel through 

I realise my end too 

like the river to the sea

I will one day 

come to find Thee.