full of grace

it's better this way

wandering 

alone

out in the wilderness that is life 

the painter paints

in monotone hues

don't be fooled

by the tea dances

by the laughs and smiles

toilet selfies that beguile 

haven't you heard the clowns prayer

haven't you read the tramps guide

a heart exhales 

for a brief while 

when it relieves another

and for a brief while

 its not so sad

to live in this sad

world

* _ *

elders r friends

86 years 

 electric pink hair
a heavy trolley in tow

you taught me always go slow,
marina

76 years

a heart of gold

you twirl me around glovina 

you tell me i look beautiful

and kiss me on the cheek
you tell me to speak
my truth- always

93 years
gentle and upright
your heart catches the light olga
the older
you get, the more lovely you become

and
when i feel down

you make me so happy 

you give me faith

in a world lacking
when all i know are endings
you help me see the beauty in them
in endings
I'm spending

my time
in earnest.

and you don't know

how much you've come to mean to me

elders r friends
 i'll always remember 
the way you glowed

the way you showed

me love

x

nothing lasts (so hold fast- you said)

thought about you 

when i went for a swim

the ocean is far away

the stars above our heads

died to soon

you said i was your eyes

you don't know how surprised

I was, when you said 

that i was your eyes

when you said you missed me

when you said you wished we

could be together forever

i have holes in my hands

the coal burnt through my flesh

even at my best

I was never so good

I don't think i ever would

have sacrificed anything

for everything 

you offered

the world

i'm sorry