Friday, 28 September 2018

trajectory

as soon as you decide 
to follow a different trajectory 
one that guides you towards the light
they come at you from every side

and it breaks my heart
that you traded in your thawb for something else
and it breaks my heart
that you're traversing shadows in the night
 damascus. tehran. 
the revolution. the war.
the door
its wide open 
nightfall and we're at the lake.
the day it all began 
your life
mine
and it breaks my heart
the way the sun set breaks my heart
try as you might, you can never truly start
      over
ghosts reappear 
     so many ghosts
 so many ghosts so many ghosts 
so many ghosts
>
they reach out, they take form 
and try to change the direction 
in which you're going

and it breaks my heart
the way we all continually hurt ourselves
and it breaks my heart
that they want to love you

when you desire only His love

and it breaks my heart
to break all these hearts
and it breaks my heart
to break all these hearts
the distance the closeness

looking back, there was only ever me
my shadow stretches
it rises it falls
it fades into darkness
looking back, there was only ever me
and
desire, 
and
distress
and     
the mess
that is living 
in this world. 

confess nothing to me-

for this life is not real.